No one believes their life will turn out just kind of OK.
We all think we're going to be great.
And from the day we decide to be surgeons,
we are filled with expectation.
Expectations of the trails we will blaze,
the people we will help, the difference we will make.
Great expectations of who we will be, where we will go.
And then we get there.
The chicken's delicious. What is it?
- It's salt crusted. - It's his mama's recipe.
- Meredith? Would you like seconds? - No, I'm great.
This is great, but maybe Cristina would like some.
- Cristina, would you like some? - I only made enough for three.
This isn't at all awkward.
You know, we can go and you two can talk.
- We're talking. - To each other.
Enjoying your meal at the International House of Silence?
Burke, you have to feed Cristina.
She doesn't cook and she will starve.
- I have cereal. - You two live together.
Someone has to be the first to speak. This is insane.
I am giving a dinner party.
If she wants to sit there, she can.
Let's enjoy our evening and talk about something else.
I heard a crazy rumor today from one of the scrub nurses.
- That Richard was retiring. - That's an interesting rumor.
What? It's true?
Richard's going to name a new chief of surgery?
He asked Burke. But Burke took himself out of the running
which apparently is my fault. For being part of the team.
- He asked you? - Who wants dessert?
Burke as Chief.
Did you see how miserable they were?
Richard promised me chief.
It's so sad. She's not talking to him, he's not talking to her.
He asked me to come out here.
Said I would become chief.
But no, no, no, no.
- He asks Burke. - I don't think they're gonna make it.
He said to me, "Shep, you're my man. "' Not Burke.
How can two people be in a relationship and not talk?
I am supposed to be chief.
George? Can I come in?
I made you cookies, brownies, muffins. I always make muffins.
I can't take it anymore. Three times already tonight.
And he's getting ready for a fourth!
Are you talking about...? Oh.
Yeah. You know, I'd get it if he were crying or depressed.
We deal differently. This is not grieving.
This is my legs being bent in ways they don't go.
I know his dad died. I get it. I feel horrible for him.
But if this keeps up, pretty soon we'll be having a funeral for my vagina.
I'll give you guys some privacy. Very far away.
No! You stay. You take over for me, OK?
- Callie Torres! - No, not like that.
I am giving him to you. You are now officially on George-Watch 2007.
You are his friend. And I need a break. I need to heal.
- No! - I need to heal!
What am I supposed to?
Callie!
- Thank you. Goodbye. - No! Callie!
What's taking you so...?
Uh, she... she had to go.
Are you hungry?
- Hey. - Oh. Dr. Karev. Hello.
- What's wrong with you? - Me? No, I'm good.
I'm all good. All good.
- You've been avoiding me for a week. - No. I have not.
OK, fine, forget it.
- I kissed Karev. - George has become a sex machine.
George has turned into a sex machine.
Are you hearing me? We have to do something.
- What's wrong with you? - Derek kept me up all night ranting.
Cristina and Burke are not speaking to each other.
I'm fine. I'm just not going to be the first one talking.
He has to talk because I'm right.
Talking first is for losers. I'm winning.
Plus she's starving because he won't cook for her.
And Alex? I don't know what's wrong with Alex.
I'm good. I'm all good.
Let me remind you I'm recovering from the death of my fiancé,
demise of my career, being forced to deposit an 8 million dollar check
I was saving for a good cause.
I'm under the care of a shrink. I could blow any minute.
George's dad died and turned him into a sex machine.
I'm going to need help with that, so one of you better pull it together!
Hey! Anyone seen Callie? I need to find her for something.
You people are on your own today. I've got important things to do.
While I'm doing those things,
you will remember that whatever your pathetic personal problems,
there are people out there with actual problems.
And you will ask yourselves in every situation,
"What would Bailey do?"
"W-W-B-D."'
I'm not saying I am the God.
I am saying I am your god, and my wrath is large.
And painful.
- What is wrong with everyone today? - Everyone seems OK, I think.
Sex machines don't get to have an opinion.
Last I heard perpetual sex was not one of the stages of grief.
- But denial is. - That's not what I'm doing.
- You shouldn't be listening at doors. - You were in the hallway naked.
- I've blocked that out. - Denial.
Dr. Montgomery, is sex another form of denial?
What?
What do you know?
That...
That you have a GYN patient in here that you want us to see.
That's right.
That's right. I do. Shall we?
- Morning. - Morning.
- Chief! - Chief? Chief?
- I gotta talk to the chief. - I was here first!
I have a very important meeting to get to.
- I'll talk quickly. - Get in too, Shep. Make it fast.
- Mine's not fast. Mine is epic. - Then we'll have to talk later.
Why are you wearing a tie?
And why are you smiling like that?
You have the length of this elevator ride. Use it well.
I have two words for you, chief. Free clinic.
- What? - I want Seattle Grace to open a clinic.
- I know, it's a big undertaking. - This isn't even surgical.
Chief, I can do this. I know I can.
- I've done all the research. - There's hoops to jump through.
Funding, you have to get department heads to OK it...
Well, if I get the support, will you consider this?
I'll think about it. I can't imagine why you want to take this on.
You're a surgeon. I gotta get to my meeting now.
- You've been having pain and bleeding? - For weeks.
- It's not a big deal. - I had to drag her in here.
- On our day off from the restaurant. - Let the doctors check you out.
A lot of doctors. She needs three people for a Pap smear?
Actually, it's not a Pap smear, it's a pelvic exam.
And since this is a teaching hospital,
I was going to have one of the interns do the exam.
- If you're uncomfortable with that... - No, it's fine.
I'm helping you guys learn something, right?
- OK. Stevens? - Really? Bailey said...
It's OK.
OK.
Jilly, I'm just going to warm the speculum for comfort,
so if you'll just relax your knees.
You don't have to stay.
I'm staying. We do everything together.
We might as well do this.
Rachel and I were born two days apart.
That's nice your friendship has stayed so strong.
Cradle to grave, right?
Cradle to grave.
Just relax this muscle for me. You're going to feel the speculum.
Dr. Montgomery?
If you're having a difficult time finding the cervix
- point the speculum downwards. - Dr. Montgomery.
- OK, Jilly... - Wait.
- He didn't get to look. - I don't have to.
You said this was a teaching hospital. He should learn.
Dr. O'Malley.
OK, what do you have up there?
Is she pregnant? My God, if you are pregnant...
No. I'm not pregnant.
Am I?
No.
I could see the tumor with my naked eye.
I've never seen a cervical tumor that large.
Does she have cancer?
It'll take hours to get the biopsy results back.
If she has cancer I need you to tell me because if you tell me in front of her,
I'll start to cry and when I cry, she cries.
If she has family, parents, you should call them.
You should call them now.
It's just her parents... We left home.
We both left home when we were 16 and we haven't been back.
We don't speak to them. It's complicated.
It's just Jilly... In situations like these,
she might change her mind. She might want her family.
I am her family.
She is my family.
I am not contacting her parents. And neither are you.
Jim, annoying interns. Annoying interns, Jim.
Jim is semi-comatose and has stage three decubitus ulcers.
Bedsores?
Right.
He's gonna need to be débrided, have his dressings changed,
- and be repositioned every two hours. - Every two hours?
By the time we finish we'll have to start again.
- I'm crying on the inside. - Can't the nurses help?
They could, but I like nurses.
They're helpful and smart and already good at their jobs.
So as a going away gift to them, I'm going to let you hang with Jim
while I go do one last rhinoplasty at Seattle Grace.
I like to leave a city just a little prettier than when I came.
Did he just say he was leaving? As in quitting?
Dr. Shepherd.
Dr. Bailey. How was your meeting with the chief?
That's what I want to talk to you about,
a project I'm trying to get off the ground.
I'd like to open a free clinic.
- Why? - Because I want to.
And I could use your support.
That kind of project is logistical, strategic and administrative.
Something the chief does. Apparently I'm not cut out for that kind of work.
So, you're going to have to take it to somebody else.
- How's George? - Dealing, I guess.
He sure has a voracious appetite.
Well, some people bake, others eat.
No, I don't mean that appetite. The other appetite.
Oh, OK.
We are not friends, you and I.
We're not friends. Don't talk to me about what George eats.
OK, I thought you'd be concerned.
But you know what? Forget it. I don't like you.
Oh, now my feelings are hurt
because you won't share inappropriate details about your sex life.
Steve Beck, age 32.
Right patellar dislocation while running a marathon.
Paramedics told me I blacked out.
Any theories as to how Mr. Beck passed out?
No sign of head injury. His BP was low in the field, 80/60.
Athletes have low BP's.
In that case it's probably dehydration.
- I drank a lot along the way. - What else did you do today?
Ate a couple of protein bars, took a couple of aspirin for this cold.
I got another race next month. Oh! God!
Put him in a patellar brace, get post-reduction films, and run labs.
Make sure he's not dehydrated. And, Steve,
next time you have a cold, you might want to skip the race.
Never.
You gonna be OK working on a cancer case?
- Yeah. Why? - Because of your dad.
- Callie! Hey. - Hi. Sorry. Busy. Izzie.
- Is she avoiding me? What are...? - Maybe. I don't know.
I'm here if you wanna talk. You're sad.
I don't wanna talk about that.
- I'm your best friend. - Why are you making this about you?
It's not. It's about me wanting to talk about you needing so much sex
- your girlfriend's vagina's broken. - Puritans.
- I'm not a Puritan. - Izzie.
- Look out! - Coming through!
Do you need some help?
Pardon?
- Our daughter is here somewhere. - What's her name?
We'll look her up for you.
Jillian Miller. Jilly.
You'll probably have to have chemo.
I don't know.
- Probably. - Don't be scared.
People have chemo all the time.
I can take you back and forth to the hospital.
I'll switch my shifts at the restaurant. Maybe do nights instead of days.
Mom? Dad?
- Hello, Jilly. - What are...?
What are you doing here? You called her parents?
- I told you not to! - No. I didn't.
It's OK, Rach. She meant well.
- They can't talk to you, remember? - Right. I'm shunned.
You can't give an inch, can you? You and these rules.
Jilly, I have your test results.
- I'm sorry, you are...? - My parents.
It is... It is cancer?
It seems to be localized,
but in order to remove the tumor and hopefully prevent its recurrence
we'll have to perform a radical hysterectomy.
Surgery?
- It's OK, Rach. - But how does...?
- How did it get this bad? - Jilly doesn't want you here, OK?
- Rachel, it's OK. - No, it's not.
They'll make you go home with them. Is that what you want?
Do you want to go back there?
Mom. Dad. You should go.
- But you're having surgery. - I know,
but you coming was a mistake.
Please go home.
You're quitting?
As soon as I hand in my letter of resignation.
- Why? - Why do you care?
I don't. Just one dirty mistress to another.
I hate it here. I hate the town. I hate the weather.
I hate the people. They're mean.
They're unforgiving.
Uh-huh. The people of Seattle are unforgiving or Derek and Addison?
What's your point?
What about your contract?
My non-binding verbal agreement with Richard?
Yeah, I'm breaking that.
Well, it's not as if he's going to be around to enforce it.
- What do you mean? - Nothing.
Come on. One dirty mistress to another.
- Rumor has it he's stepping down. - The chief?
- Who's gonna take his place? - What do you care?
You're leaving anyway.
Hey.
When Richard invited you out here, what did he use as bait?
He told me I would have the foremost neonatal unit west of Manhattan.
He didn't say anything about being chief?
- Why? What do you know? - Nothing.
- I know what you know. - You're lying.
- Dr. Montgomery. - Busy now, Karev.
When you get a minute, I'd like to talk about the kissing.
- Who'd you piss off? - Sloan.
- Nice. - You got anything good?
Not even a fracture.
You'd think a guy passes out while running would get a fracture.
Anyone available to assist me on a truncus arteriosus surgery?
- Yeah. - Yes, absolutely.
Good.
The first one of you to accurately describe the condition will scrub in.
No one knows the answer?
That's too bad. It'll probably be years before we see another one like this.
Oh, well.
It's a single arterial trunk coming from the ventricles.
- How could you not know that? - How could you not say it?
She tried, but she couldn't crawl out from underneath
that very large pile of pride.
I'm sorry you had to find out about the chief that way.
You mean, after the fact? Not the first time.
I couldn't go to anybody about my hand. I didn't know who I could trust.
- I was stuck. - Yeah. Well, now you're not.
Hand's all better. You can operate. You can even run for chief.
- Life is all good again. - No. I'm not going to try for chief.
I'm looking for... answers.
Chief asked you once already. Don't see why he wouldn't again.
Look, I couldn't take the job. It wouldn't be...
It wouldn't be... right.
Well, whether something's right or not
doesn't seem to matter much in this place.
Thanks.
They keep taking my blood. I thought I'd be able to leave soon.
Your labs show that you're dehydrated, your muscles are breaking down a bit.
We just want everything back to normal
- before we send you home. - My knee's going to be OK, right?
I blew this race. I gotta win the next one.
- You've won marathons before? - Twice.
Well, most people are just happy surviving the 26 miles.
I'm not most people.
Yeah, me neither.
Uh, your X-ray looks fine.
Your knee should be OK in three weeks. You might try some PT.
- It's pretty sore. - The knee?
Yeah. My calves, too.
Oh, well, maybe your brace is a little too tight.
You got extreme swelling in both legs. Get Torres now.
- What happened? - He was complaining of leg pain.
- Can't you make it stop? - Can't find a pulse.
- Didn't page me? - Just happened. Ordered morphine.
He's gonna need it. His legs are rock hard and he's pulseless.
- His compartment pressures's 76. - Open a cut-down tray.
Gloves. I need you to do everything I do, exactly as I do it.
All right? Steve?
This is going to hurt, but if you want to keep your legs,
I need you to hold them still. Can you do that?
OK. Hold his legs.
All right.
OK. Follow my lead.
People, what happened?
Came in with a dislocated patella, dehydration.
Quick-onset compartment syndrome in bilateral legs.
CK is through the roof. His potassium is 7.6.
He looks like he's had a recent Ml.
I've started pushing meds for hypokalemia, no response.
His kidneys are failing. Why in the hell is this progressing so rapidly?
- Oh, damn it! - What?
Aspirin. With dehydration, his muscles are breaking down.
Aspirin is accelerating it. His system's crashing.
The toxins are going to kill him. I need to put in a dialysis catheter.
Let's get this man to an OR now, people.
Want to go grab lunch?
Oh, yeah, I was actually hoping to grab lunch with Callie.
- Have you seen her? - No, but...
- I think I'm going to page her. - George.
- Izzie. - Look.
- They're still here. - They're her family.
Where else are they going to go?
Actually I'm going to find Callie.
Dr. Leone, call the blood bank. Dr. Leone, call the blood bank.
- Dr. Montgomery. - Now is not a good time... Karev!
- Karev, listen to me. - No, you listen.
You kissed me, right? And ever since you've been avoiding me.
- Alex. - You've been avoiding me
because you assume I want you.
You expect that everyone you look at sideways is pining after you?
Has it even occurred to you that maybe I'm not interested?
You're not interested?
Do you think I want to be just another intern sleeping with an attending?
You kissed me back.
You're my boss. I mean, what did you expect me to do?
Look, Sloan's had me changing bandages all day.
I would rather be scrubbing in on your surgeries.
If you keep avoiding me, then I don't get to scrub in.
So stop avoiding me.
It happened. But it doesn't have to happen again.
- All right. - All right.
You're headed back to New York?
- Where'd you hear that? - Good news travels fast.
I was going to ask you to scrub in on a nerve reconstruction.
- Since it's your last day... - It isn't. And I'd love to.
- What? I thought... - I was going, but now I'm not.
Rumor has it there's a race for chief.
- Where'd you hear that? - Good news travels fast.
Especially when you have a chatty girlfriend.
See you at the finish line.
Have you done that before?
Slice a guy's legs open while he's awake? No.
- Impressive. - You, too.
Not that we're friends or anything.
So you said I should be concerned.
About George?
He doesn't... He doesn't talk about his dad.
We don't talk about anything, really.
Talking's overrated.
So you and Burke still aren't...?
George told me.
- Well, see, you talked about that. - Yeah, a week ago.
If this keeps up, you and Burke might be the very last thing we ever talk about.
So, what's the last thing you and Burke talked about?
Silence is overrated.
- Where's Rachel? - She went to go make some phone calls.
Try to get our shifts covered.
You know, Jilly, um... your parents are still here.
- They are? - And I'm not the one who called them.
Yeah.
You called them. Right?
And I'm guessing they had to fly in from somewhere,
so you called them, what? Yesterday? The day before?
I went to an ER a while ago.
And they told me to see an oncologist.
But I was working three jobs at the time
and I couldn't afford my rent let alone pay a bunch of medical bills.
But, then I got scared.
You called your parents.
I didn't know what else to do.
You sent them away because...?
Rachel's my best friend and after she was baptized,
she decided to leave the community.
Which means she's shunned.
But I couldn't just let her go out in the world all by herself.
- So you're shunned, too? - No.
Because I hadn't been baptized yet.
So I could still go back.
- But Rachel would never. - Do you want to go back?
I think about it.
It's my home, you know?
And if I'm dying...
...I want an Amish funeral.
I want to be buried in the white dress
and I want everybody to be there.
It's your home.
But I made a promise to Rachel.
Cradle to grave.
How did Jilly let it get this far?
It's frustrating, isn't it?
It's entirely preventable and treatable if you catch it in time,
but you've got to catch it.
Which is why I want to open a clinic.
If she had access to a free clinic,
she probably would have had a Pap smear every year,
and wouldn't be dealing with infertility and premature menopause
at the tender age of 23.
- You want to open a free clinic? - At Seattle Grace? Why?
Illness caught early means fewer unnecessary surgeries.
- Fewer unnecessary deaths. - But I mean, why?
Because. And if I can get the support that I'm looking for...
I need some suction.
- Oh, no. - My, God.
- What? - The tumor's invaded through the cervix
- and into the bladder. - Which means she's a stage four.
We're not doing this operation today. We've got to close her up.
There's nothing more we can do here.
O'Malley?
It's his dad.
There. It looks like we're in.
How far did he run before his body had the good sense to pass out?
- Twelve miles. - You got to be out of your mind.
He couldn't have expected a cold and a couple aspirin to do him in.
He felt dizzy miles before he passed out.
He should have stopped, sat his ass down.
He was in it to win. I can understand that.
You can, can you?
Surgery's the most competitive field in medicine.
It's a long road. When you get to the end,
you're not gonna care about winning.
You're just going to be relieved that you made it to the finish line.
- You told Sloan? - What?
You told him chief was stepping down? I wanted the job?
- I didn't know that was a secret. - He was leaving town!
- OK, and now he's not? - No, he's not!
You gave him a reason to stay.
Derek.
I just got back to work, Bailey. I've got a lot to catch up on.
I'm asking for a few hours a week.
I can't deal with any more distractions right now.
You owe me.
- What? - When you had that tremor,
you cut me out of surgery after surgery.
You made me feel like I was the one who couldn't do her job.
You made me doubt myself. You owe me this.
You need someone who can provide leadership to the project.
- I'm not that man. - Not anymore.
If that's what you want to believe.
Um, Dr. Montgomery was here.
And she was saying...
I'm not sure I understood what she was saying.
She said that over the next few months,
Jilly's going to go through a lot.
Radiation, chemo...
It's likely her condition will get worse.
A lot worse. And she's going to need a lot of help.
OK, um...
Well, can you give me some names of doctors and medications?
Because I want to be ready. I want to know everything so I can do this.
- Do this right for her. - Rachel...
...you can't be everything. It's too hard.
Jilly has parents who love her. They love her
and they're here and she wants to go home.
- No, she doesn't. - She called them. Not me.
Jilly?
Jilly is dying.
But I promised her.
Cradle to grave.
She's Jilly. I love her.
It's possible the best thing you can do for her, if you love her,
is let her go.
- Are you waiting to see the chief? - Yes.
- You? - Yeah.
- About...? - Oh, you know, just admin stuff.
- Yeah. Me too. - What are you doing here?
- We're waiting to see the chief. - You too?
- Yes, Derek. Both of us. - You're unbelievable.
I'm unbelievable? The chief steps down, you assume it's between you and Burke?
- Think he'll pick you? - He hasn't tapped either of you,
means that he has another candidate in mind.
What, no one invited me to the party?
- Chief! - I have an appointment!
I've been trying to find time. It's important...
- I have an appointment. - Stop! Stop! Stop!
- One at a time. - I had an appointment.
Patricia put it in the books.
You. What's all this about?
Well, they all want to be chief. And for the record, so do I.
Please! Are you out of your mind?
Button it, all of you! I have had a perfect day.
I went to the board this morning and told them I was retiring.
I saved a life.
And now I'm off to see my wife.
It has been a perfect day until you four fools tried to ruin it!
A man can't be happy he's retiring around here.
Not with you vultures trying to pick my bones.
Chief, you're stepping down?
As soon as they find a replacement for me,
I'm stepping down as chief of surgery.
But I don't know when that'll be
because at this point, I don't see any frontrunners.
- Excuse me. - Chief, that's not true.
You just need to...
You didn't think of telling me this morning you were planning to step down
instead of sending me on this wild goose chase?
Dr. Bailey, you need those clowns to sign off on your proposal
because one of them may be chief of surgery in a month.
It's hard to imagine, for me more than anyone,
but since you're not ready for the job,
one of them's gonna have to do it for the next few years.
- Me? - It's you in the chair eventually.
That's who you are.
But you're gonna have to get a new chair because you're short.
You have short legs.
But someday you are going to be chief of surgery.
I wasn't sending you on a wild goose chase.
I was trying to get you into the habit of doing things without me.
He's really doing it. He's really retiring.
- One of us could be chief. - No.
One of us could be chief. You? I don't think so.
- Yeah. - Yeah.
- I could be chief - You're delusional.
Mark Sloan, chief of surgery.
That makes me vomit a little in my mouth.
These are your letters of support for my free clinic.
- Sign them. - Why do you want this clinic so badly?
- You're a surgeon. - Because I need something more.
You all have your messy love lives and your secrets
and your silliness, but I want more.
I need something to hold on to.
I need a reason to believe that medicine can do more than stitch you up
and send you away.
I need to believe that medicine can not only save lives but change lives.
I need... I need...
I need to believe in something the way I used to believe in you all.
Sign the papers.
Besides, if you want to be considered a candidate for chief of surgery,
pioneering a pilot program like a free clinic
will look very good on your résumé.
- Sign the papers! - You still need funding.
The Nazi's back.
Good for her.
She went after something and she got it.
May the best man win.
- Best man wins. - Excuse me.
Lady chief right here.
What am I, invisible?
Hi.
- Go home. - Rach.
They're your parents. And you love them.
And they're still here.
You know what a big deal it is for them to get on a plane.
Go home, Jilly.
But I can't just leave you here.
Yes, you can.
- Rachel. - You can go back home
and you can put on your bonnet.
And you can get in the buggy and go to church, get baptized.
- You can die Amish. - No, I can't do that.
Why? Because you'll have to shun me? Don't worry about me.
I'll be living it up here with your curling iron and your cable TV,
your entire DVD collection.
I'll be OK here in the 21st century.
- I can't shun you. - You can and you will.
And I won't take no for an answer.
Now, say hello to your parents.
Hi.
- Hi, Jilly. - Hi.
- Jilly. - Dad.
I will tell your parents that I saw you. And you are well and happy.
- And have grown into a fine woman. - Good.
Richard. What are you doing here?
These are for you.
- Richard, what are you doing here? - Coming home to my wife.
I did it, Adele. I retired.
I told the board today.
And I gotta tell you, I didn't think I wanted to do it,
but I'm relieved. I'm happy.
But when I told you I didn't have any more time to wait,
- I meant it. - I know, which is why...
That was months ago!
Months ago, I said you were out of time with me!
Adele...
Is there a man in my house?
I'm so sorry, Richard.
But what did you expect?
I'm sorry.
Why...
What's wrong with having a lot of sex if it makes me feel better?
Do you...
...feel better?
You know how you felt?
When you were lying on the bathroom floor?
Maybe you're not supposed to feel better.
Iz, you can't help me.
I know you want to. But you can't.
- You can't help me. - I have to let you go.
Yeah.
Just one last thing.
Life is short, George.
Life is short and it sucks a lot of the time.
If being with Callie makes you happy, then go be with Callie.
- Hey, you going to be OK? - I think so.
- How's your clinic going? - Got my signatures.
Which is a start.
The Seattle Grace Free Clinic will exist.
The Denny Duquette Memorial Clinic.
- What? - I have eight million dollars.
Izzie Stevens.
You left without me.
Now you're not talking to me.
I was a jerk.
Sometimes boyfriends can be jerks. Doesn't mean you stop talking to them.
You get that I'm saying I'm sorry, right?
You yelled at me for no reason and then you walked away.
- And now you show up here? - Of course I showed up.
Why wouldn't I? You don't trust me?
- I do. - OK, well, this is how it works.
You fight sometimes and somebody apologizes.
Well, how am I supposed to know that?
You've never done this before.
- No, I've never done this before. - Hmm.
OK. All right. Well, this is...
From now on, you can expect that I'm going to show up.
Even if I yell. Even ifyou yell.
I'm always going to show up.
OK?
OK.
Mm.
You are going to make an excellent chief.
We all think we're going to be great.
Yeah.
And we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren't met.
Karev, I've got an ovarian torsion that needs emergent surgery.
You want in?
Yeah.
But sometimes our expectations sell us short.
I was right.
I swear, I really believe what I did was right.
I don't want you to forgive me.
Frankly, I'd find it patronizing if you did
because while I know I was right, you think I'm wrong.
Which doesn't matter.
Because...
...I'm in this.
I'm in this for the long haul
and I'm in this to finish the race.
So if that means I don't win this one,
then fine, I don't win.
You win.
I'm talking.
See? I'm talking first. You win.
Sometimes the expected
simply pales in comparison to the unexpected.
Marry me.
- I don't want to waste another minute. - I can't have sex again.
I can't. I just... Enough with the sex.
Since my dad died, I feel like someone ripped out my stomach,
filled the hole with asphalt.
And I laugh every time I remember I'm never going to talk to him again
because it just sounds like the stupidest thing I've ever heard.
I can't believe it's real.
But every time I look at you,
I feel better.
It shocks me.
It knocks my wind out, but it's true. I don't have to have sex with you.
I'll be happy just to look at you from across the room.
And even that, anything, any piece of you.
I mean, hopefully all of you. That'd be the best thing.
- Because I love you. - George.
Marry me.
Will you marry me?
Marry me, Cristina Yang.
You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations.
Because the expected is just what keeps us steady.
Standing. Still.
Marry me.
The expected's just the beginning.
The unexpected...
...is what changes our lives.